Pre-Wedding Concern

Okay, so today, I got a bit more excited about Robert's release from prison. I'll finally get my husband! My kids will finally know their father! But, I must admit I was having some concern about it all. At first hearing it, I was praising God and couldn't be happier. But as the weekend went on, I had some more time to reflect about all of it. Am I really making a decision that is right for all my fammily, and not just myself? Sure, he may be the father to my children, but will he be there like he's promised? Will he be the God-fearing man he said he'd be? We had problems with him drinking, and not telling the truth. Will these problems still persist once he leaves prison?
So, God has blessed me with my husband! I prayed about it, and I feel as though I'm ready for this. God has not only opened the door for him to come home, he completely ripped it off it's hinges in a way that I never imagined! God has made it possible for us to be together quicker than what I intented. Apparently, He wants us to be together. But, I'm just concerned....
First off, Robert's Catholic, and I'm Christian. I believe he said he ws willing to go to my church, but I know before he entered prison, there was a big feud over this issue. Will he be willing to go to my church? Will he be able to convert, or is he just saying that to make me happy? I really believe that God wants us in this church(Glad Tidings), but will he see it, too??? This church has soo much to offer us, I just hope that Robert will see this, and if it's God's will, he will be willing to come and be a part of this church family, too.
Then the concern about him and myself reading the Bible together...and praying. His prayers might be more traditional(Catholic), and my stlye might be more personal. Will we have problems praying together? Who will start? Will we alternate, or one person starts, and another finishes? And what if he's too tired to willing read the Bible everyday? What if he doesn't want to read the Bible and pray for a half-an-hour to an hour a day? What if he's not comfortable with this?
And going to church on Wednesday nights for Marriage Bible study....will he be okay with that? What about going to marriage therapy(because,we both messed up and need it ASAP)? I want us to have our foundations in Christ, and I don't want either of us to stray from this, but I'm concerned because I'm afraid that he'll either reject it, or not tell the truth during sessions.
What about his inability to tell the truth? Yes, I'm concerned!! I've said in my head over and over again, that I'm not angry about the fact that he lied to me about the DUI's....but I'm mad! And he still hasn't admitted that he lied, and that bothers me deeply. I want to let him know that it's OK, it's a part of his past, but it's not okay to lie about it. He already has my heart, so why does he feel the need to hide things? Is he afraid that I'll run away,tell him it's over? Because, that's not the case. I don't know why, but I love him more than words can express, I know that he's the one God has intended me to marry. But why won't he come clean about these things? Will we continue to have issue with him not telling the truth in the future?????
Also, I'm worried that he may not be so thrilled to know that my debt is probably much larger than his. Will he be willing to be OK with that? I'm pretty sure that he knows that once we're married, he has to help me pay that debt off.
Kids...? I want more kids...many more kids...in fact, I'm at the point where I'll let him have as many kids as God's willing to bless us with!! Isn't that crazy? I saw myself as a woman to do this, but without a proper man(husband) by my side, it seemed It just wasn't in the plans. But now that he's on his way out and agreed to marry me, will he be as..excited as I am to start adding on to our family,as soon as possible? Or, will he want to wait for (a certain time)? Before he was arrested, he said that he wanted to wait until we finished college, but I want him to pursue his doctorate, and I can stay at home with the children. Am I asking too much of him?
Will he be ok with the fact that I want to be a stay at home mom? Or will he want me to work, so that we can get our debt out the way quicker?? I'm not sure!!!
And what about the move? I want to move ASAP, so that we can start new in a new home,together. I've lived a lot of bad experiences in the house I'm in now, and I'm more than ready(mentally) for a fresh start. Will he be as willing? I just feel as though if we moved(soon) that I would be more able to remain positive. We live in a cramped apartment, with damages coming out of the cazoo, and plus, I've lived out one too many bad experiences there. But,financially I'm not sure if we're ready.
Well, these are some of the things that are troubling my mind. I'm going to try tonight to pray over each of them, and see what God wants for us. I know that it's God's will for us to be married, but all these other things have been left in a big void...am I making the right choice, God?
Mama J