God is still working miracles in my life!

Today, I wanted so bad to get mad about what I posted yesterday. My flesh still wanted to be mad.
But my spirit was already looking at it in a differnt light last night. And, as I awoke today, I did not see the things mentioned as an "issue" but rather as another oppertunity to serve God(through my children). I chose not to be mad still, or rather, God was working within me to not allow this "problem" to continue into sin. Phillippians 4:8 comes to mind, as I type and listen to Joyce Myer. At the end of last night, I chose not to think of the things that upset me, but rather, about the things that God has already done in my life. And guess what?! IT WORKED!!
Today seemed so much better. I got very little work done, but I attempted to work nonetheless. And even through my half-hearted attempt, God is still working miracles that could only be His touch in my family's life.
First off, I called my parents and told them I wasn't going to church because my tummy hurt. That wasn't entirely false, my tummy did hurt...but not really enough to not go to  church at the time. But, oh how glad I was that I did stay home! Two hours later, I felt the impact of my tummy pangs, and...well, let's just say it wasn't pretty.
Okay, so, I probably shouldn't of mentioned that..but,oh,well. I said it.
Anyways, at first, I felt bad. My stemother called to see if everything was okay, and she thought that I was mad at them about something( I was..for a little bit last night). I told her no, and I'm glad I did. She then told me that she was going to go back to the salvation army, and if their van service didn't run out to my house, that her and dad would still pick me up. She also mentioned some volunteer oppertunities(Which is something that ahs been on my heart for awhile to do, and the kids have asked about it more lately), so even through something that I at first was upset about turned out to be a blessing instead. If they do offer the van service, I might just go anyways. I was being selfish with my thoughts. And Emily even mentioned that they need help with the children's ministry..maybe that's why God has put children as my ministry..who knows? Either way, I hav efound a great resource for children's ministry(regardless of if I do it at home with my own kids or in a larger setting,) that is completely FREE(well, you have to buy the supplies, but still..the lessons are FREE, and I like free!). Blessings in disguise! Praise God!!!!
And then, my neighbor came over and asked me to watch her son on turesday..PRAISE GOD!!! That means additional money for our homeschool(or...the bills! ). My aunt also asked me to watch her kids again this week..PRAISE THE LORD!  Another blessing!
And just when I think God is done, oh,no when HE blessses, His Blessings overflow...
TWO people signed up for my online Avon website. I have yet to check, but as of right now ONE has already placed an order...THANK YOU, GOD!!! and the otehr said that she was going to order last night..I jsut ahven't check yet, but I'm praising God for her, anyways! On top of THAT I got someone who asked me to mail them a catalog,a nd asked if they could share it...potentially TWO additional customers!!! GOD IS GOOD!!! ALSO, my stepmother and father called and put in tehir orders for the upcoming campaign..PRAISE THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY!!!
Lastly, God has blessed me with an order from my neighbor this past campaign!!!
I just can't say it enough...THANK YOU, GOD!!!
Even when I think God isn't paying me any mind, he ends up suprizing me WITH A SHOWER OF BLESSINGS!!
God is just too good to my family! We did nothing to deserve His endless mercy and grace, and yet, He keeps pouring it out to us, anyways! 
I'd better get going. I jsut had to put in a praise report so that I can continue to remember God's goodness, even when I have my 'moments' in the flesh. I'd better get going.
TO GOD BE THE GLORY, FOREVER!!

I can't help but thank God for all of this.

Hypocrites,hypocrites,everywhere!

Just when I think things are starting to get somewhat in order...hypocrites in my very own family prevail!
I'm not even sure of where this all came from. Really, I don't.
It all started with my aunt..first she calls to complain( a normal habit that I normally ignore), but this time...it was my dad she was complaining about. At first, I had to side with my father on the issue. She expected my dad to pick up her son, and take him to my house, and drive back home. My dad isn't made of money, that he can sit there and waste gas like that! I thought. I know I'd be fuming,too(like my dad),especially since she sprung this up all last minute on him. But, I thought...isn't that family is supposed to do? My aunt needs help(even though I don't completely agree with the need of babysitting for a bunch of teenagers), and she's asking family. Family is supposed to pull through, right? Well, my dad did do it, but he said he wasn't going to do it next week for her. She was upset, because now she feels like her family doesn't care, or is available to help out at times like these. I totally understood the feeling.
But, I listened, and then I hung up. I try not to get in the middle of these sort of things. It makes me feel divided, and I hate to choose sides with family.
Now, my dilemma. A week ago, my stepmother decided that she was going to switch churches. SHe wanted to go to the same one  as my aunt. I said I was getting frustrated with the Jehova's Witness church(KIngdom Hall), and we both agreed that we should switch churches. We also agreed that they(my parents) were going to pick me up from now on, and we were all going to go to church as one big happy family. Okay, that last part was added by me. But, last week was very nice. We went to the church, I even treated them to Wendy's..it was all so nice. But, for reasons unknown to me, my dad called me just now, and said, "you know they have a van,right? Let them pick you up next week, and we're going to Salvation Army. We'll pick you up tomorrow,though. But, after that you can use the van." First off, I'mnot trying to say that I'm higher than thou or anything, but...I hate using church vans. I used to do it as a kid, and I always felt odd about it. Now that I have kids, I wouldn't DARE try the van thing. Who knows what the heck is in those things? What if someone's sick, and gets on...UGH. I just do NOT like the thought of church vans.
And my dad..I'm not sure of what to think. I think both my aunt and my dad are peeved at eachother, and now they're both taking it out on me(in their own ways). I will call the van, but if they don't offer it in my area(which is often the case), then I have to tell the kids we can't go. And they're going to be mad at me, and I'm going to be mad at dad...
I hate the things that ALWAYS seem to happen at the end of the summer with my family. Now I understand why God told me to move at the time that he did. ARRRHGGGGGHHHH. Why didn't I listen?!
On top of all this, I'm trying to break up with the JW's. I largely did this because I thought that my parents were going to make the way for us to go to church. And now this...
So, now I have to break up with the JW's, and I have no means of us to go to a church. GREAT, JUST FREAKIN' GREAT!!! Grrrrr.....
I have a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach about ALL of this....that somehow, family relationships are going to be strained. I hate it when these happens....
I'd better go. I jsut thought that I would vent out some frustrations. Who knew going to church would be this..upsetting? God, I wish you would bless me with a vehicle already!!
I'd better get going.

Dating? Don't think so!

I'm not sure if I had mentioned this in my last posting, but apparently, "caring" friends and family are surrounding me with the thought/idea that I should be dating.
This is from the same people who, once I do attempt to date, say that I should NOT be dating, because, well, then I'm..not available.
Okay, so..normally, I would be thankful that I have people that are concerned to the point of not wanting me to be the old lady with 50 cats running around in her house(not that I could have them, living in an apartment that doesn't allow such pets). But, for the first ever in my life...I'm actually content being single. No, I really don't want to date. Seriously!
I guess it has a lot to do with me taking time to learn more about and appreciate God. The whole family is doing it! I just don't feel that "loneliness" that I used to for so long. I'm finally content with not having to share my king sized bed with some farting, not-as-attractive after they got naked guy. I'm content with not having to limit my choice of "what's for dinner?" because my boyfriend doesn't like such-and-such or doesn't eat..whatever they don't eat. And, dare I say, I rather enjoy NOT having to shave my legs as often, because no one is touching them(except my kids, but they really don't care)!!!
Does this mean I'm "doomed to be single for the rest of my life? That I'm actually one of "those people" who willingly want to be single for the rest of their life to glorify God? Simply put...NO!
I desire nothing more than to have a HUSBAND to share and relate with. To love, and be loved in return. I'm only human, after all, and as a human, "it is not right for man(or woman) to be alone" so says God in Genesis.
But is dating and the thought of being single haunting me like the plague? No. God is working in my life, I see that with each day. I'm not saying I don't have moments when I feel lonely. I do. But, they don't bother me like they did a year ago. I have my family more grounded in scripture, and in doing so, I have learn to be okay with this time to be single. I'm at the point now, where I'm downright thankful for it.
The other day, my friend tried to play 'matchmaker' and..let's just say, it went TERRIBLE! I guess, too, after all the bad ones I've dealt with, I'm more willing to stick to guns about what I prefer. And the only thing he had going in his favor was that he was white (and I prefer white men). We talked, he was nice and all, but I knew from the get-go that it was not a match made by God.
Do you know what I wish, sometimes? I really wish the man God has made out to be my husband would just "bump into me" one day, and we'd do one date, and he'd propose. And we'd live happily ever after(or something like that)...the end. BUT, since we live in the 'real world' and that sort of stuff doesn't happen much anymore...I'm just being content being single.
I'm not saying that I will never,ever,date a man again. I'm just saying...that at this point and time in my life, it's just not a top priority in my life. It's at the bottom of my list. Right after 'becoming a billionaire' . LOL
I just have too much stuff going on in my life right now. I'm trying so hard to get it all right(and get it right with God), that I'm a bit afraid of dating. I'm doing a home-based business. I'm officially homeschooling my kids, starting next month. I'm trying to get some sort of better education for myself(thinking of a certificate in medical coding, at the moment). I'm trying to find a church that doesn't weird me out(just got out of a Jehovah's Witness Church...if anyone has been to one and left, then you know what I mean). I'm trying to move to Idaho. There is just too much going on right now to add a potential relationship on the list!
And I'm quite okay with that. Really, I am. As I collapse onto my king-sized bed each night, exhausted, I can't help but thank God for this time to be single. I can't help but thank God for this time to do things His way, without having to answer to a 'boyfriend'. I'm glad I can use this time to perfect(or start to learn) my homemaking skills, what I want out of life(with or without a spouse), and I can reflect on how best to give God the glory each day.
Dating? Not for me, not anytime soon!

I'm jumping in with both feet..part 1

Okay, so..I'm not sure if I ahve posted this in here or not. I know I have said this countless times on facebook, to family and friends via every other method, but..I thought I'd post it here,too.
This year, I'm officially homeschooling.
I'm terrified out of my mind. I mean, no one I know does this...NO ONE!! I know a lot of moms who dream about doing it, but they always say the common excuse.." I'm afraid they (the child) won't be socialized..". Or, they are single mothers who simply think they can't do it.
I just ordered the material for the kids...I'm waiting for it to arrive in the mail. After nulling it over for several months(the curriculum, not homeschooling..I've had this on my heart for over 2 years), I have finally decided on one that I think has the same objectives that I would put if I made one myself. I'm scared, but at the same time, excited.
Actually, now that I think about it, I'm making a lot of changes this year. I have decided to remain single for the next two years( unless God has other plans..), I have decided to move to Idaho when I get the available funds to do so, I am homeschooling, I am eating healthy(now if I could just actually exersize..), I am trying to make more things from scratch, and I'm trying to do a home-based buisness, as well as eliminate my debt. Did I mention I'm NOT married...???
Anyways, God is providing ways for us to earn money. As always, He's good to our family as long as we are working hard and not eating "idle bread".
I know I covered in small bits, a lot of what's going on in our family right now. I'm glad we had the summer we have so far, because I have learned a lot more than I thought possible. I have found some areas I need to work on, and God is blessing our family with more things as we continue to work hard for His glory. Does this blog seem scattered? It's probably my mind...
I have so much to cover, and so little time to tell it all. It's like I'm talking to a good friend that I haven't talked to "in forever" and I'm trying to play cath-up while realizing all the things I still have yet to do. I just realized, I have more things to do!!
I'd better get going. I'll write more later this week...as long as I make the time to do so.