Life as it unfolds..part 1

Okay, so today, I'm supposed to be lookng for a home Because, technically I'm homeless.
This morning, I debated for some time if I should even go to career link. Something was compelling me to go, despite the factthat I already have a job and I really no longer need to be there. Not to mention I can't really look or a job when I don't even know where my family will be at next week. Not that I need to look, but whatever.
So, here I am, dreading going to this job search class, when I see this familiar face. There's this woman who I started chatting up the first day of the program. She has a degree in Social work, and she was here? But shewas super-sweet,and has kids and despite the fact that she's over a foot taller than me, and looks like at an moment she'll be compelled to kik my ass, I talk to her.
So, today, I walked right over to her, and instantly notied something differntabout her. Mind you, I gave her a ride to her kids daycare, and I didn't even know her name, but I felt I knew her well enough to know something was wrong.
Out of nowhere, she tells me that she's in a very abusive relationship, and she's scared. She needed to get out of where she was living, and she needed o get out of there now. Of course, I pushed my moment to complain aside, and did what I could to help her. I offered to help her go to the crisis center, and help her get her things. She was soo thankful... I couldn't imagine me doing something as simple as offering a ride would be so benefical. I prayed that her boyfriend woudn't be home so that we would't have to deal with him as she got her things. I prayed for her while driving her to the crisis center, and helped her unload her things. She couldn't stop thanking me....
And here I was, debating if I should go to career link or not this morning, so concerned about my own crap that I failed to realize that there are people out thre who have it much worse than I do!
I had to say, thank you God after all that.
Well, I still am not sure of where I'll be living after Friday, but God has a plan for me, even if I don't.
I'm stupid. Iprayeed about thi situation awhile ago, and I heard God say, "Go." But me, I'm thinking, "Go(to move) or Go(away from this pulpit,you fool I have it all figured out)?"
Sure I cried about this for some time. I wasnt sure, and now I'm practicall being pushed out by my landlord. I have my babies to thik about, what am I going to do?
And then my guy-friend(or whatever yo want to call him). He has no pace to live,either. Well, tha's not entirely my problem. Not completely. Anyways, I told him he could stay with me until Friday. He wants to get a place together, but I'm not sure. I know him, I know his circumstances, and I know that he's not at the point where he sees a need to change himself.
Mind you, he broke a window in my house, he keeps saying that I owe him money(rent,etc.) and he doesn't see the need to marry me. So, yeah, I need to leave him. But I also need him to help me move....I'm not sure of what to do,exactly. I knowthe moreI involve him in this, the more he'll be more likely to stay, and...Oh, hell. I shouldn't be debating this. I should just tell him togo and never come back. My dad and my ant volunteered to help me move, but my dad is gong to get another back surgery son and my aunt has constant problems with...everything. So, do I really want them helping m move? Not really. He's going to help me move, and....I don't know. I have so many thingsI ave todo, and none of them are getting accomplished. But, I know GOd has His hand in all of this, and GOd will make a way for me, even when I dont see a way to make it myself. I just need to keep to the belief that I trust God to help me through this, and I'm leaning on him instead of myself.
Well, I keep you informed at a later time.
Wise Mama