Feeling a little bit more positive

Today, I was all set out to write this, how crappy is my life blog. All day, depression was settling into my head. All I could think about was- the father to my children is getting deported(what the hell do I do?), I need some money comming in ASAP, and jose really needs to start thinking about moving out. Oh, and am I really doing the right thing going to church and pretending everything is okay, when all I want to do is cry inside?
But, I got home, feeling crappy, and then I decided to eat some cake frosting(always good) and search for jobs online(also good). I wrote the letter to send to congressmen for Robert(also good) and handed in a doctor's card so that the daycare couldn't kick me out because I didn't give them documentation saying that I care about my kids enough to take them to the doctor(I DO!!) .
Well, I started to fill out applications, and prayed as I typed up each one. Guess what? Sears decided to give me an interview! Yah! I'm not sure if they do that with everyone, but it put me in a better mood! THANK YOU,GOD!!
So, I'm praying that I get the job, because I really do need some promise of money coming in soon.
I don't know what exactly to do about Robert Sr. I'm going to mail oout a letter to him and the letter to the congressmen tommorrow. So, right now that's all I can do for him, and I have to be content with that.Despite the fact that I want to do more.
Jose-well, I feel strongly that he's not really good for me, but I'll just let him know how I feel. I'll try to get his opinion, and take it from there. I need someone who's going to be there for me and my children. I need someone to be a man and a father that my children need. In other words, I need Robert. Jose isn't willing toget married, which is his problem,and soon going to be his loss.
My internet will probably be turned off tommorrow. My cell phone is already turned off. My home phone will be turned off,too. But that's okay, because God has brought us through worse, and He'll bring us through again. I just need to have faith that God will provide me a good job, bring my future husband back to us soon, and allow both of us to be the Godly people he intended us to be.
Oh,please,Lord let this be so. Please?
Well, I'm still feeling a bit more positive.