having...faith...?

okay, so despite the fact that I'm trying my best NOT to freak out about all that is going on around me..(my rent needs to be paid, we're running out of food), I'm looking into the overall cost of building a home. *gulp*
Trying to have faith that if God called me to go to Idaho, HE knows my heart. I don't want to go there, only to be in the same situation I'm in now. Because, well, what's the point in that? What's the point of moving to Idaho, only to have to obtain subsidized housing and live off the government via foodstamps and cash assistance? I want more to life than this, and I'm trying to have the faith that says that God will move me well past these obstacles, and more...towards better, before I move to IDaho. Becuase, after all, God can do all things, amen? I"m trying!
I'm trying to believe that somehow, through God's grace, we will pay off the rent, and give the landlord a total of $1000.00. I'm having faith, that, somehow, the financial aid will get pulled through today(even though I've said that for two weeks now) and I'll be closer to obtaining more food for the family, and using whatever is left to pay the debt. I'm trying to have the faith that, I told this friend of mine(lydia) that I was moving despite the fact that nothing is in place to ensure that, and ,hey, she can come along for the ride(because she wants to move to IDaho, too). Even though I haven't a clue as to how I'm getting there, much less where we'll live...I"m having faith that God will supply all this,a nd more, somehow. Because, if God can bless people as the wonderful ministers on Tv say He can, then I', going to believe. They have the Bible verses to support it, I just have to memorize them, say them in my heart, make the plans, and believe. In the Name of Jesus, this is all already mine! I receive it! I will not give into doubt of my God! I will not believe that GOd called me out of PA only to grant me the same scenario in Idaho..my God has good in store for me, not bad! *sigh* having faith to move these moutains. The mountains of debt, the moutains of poverty, the mountains of denial...I'm praying to God He will give me the faith, the wisdom, the faith, to have all these things take place. In Jesus name!
Okay, I'm going to go now. Everything in God's time, not mine. Everything in God's Glorious time. *sigh*
I'd better go.
I pray that by the end of this week, I will have some physical proof to back up the things I see in my spirit.