rainy day thoughts...

Okay, so it's raining...again. Two days of wetness,yukiness. Ugh! I know once I get the land, I'll aprreciate the rain more, but now, I'm just like...ugh. I dislike the rain, because the kids want to go out and play(or,rather, I want to go outside and let them play) and they can't. We're going to be stuck inside the house, according to weather channel, for the next several days...there goes the weekend!
Lorenzo contacted me via IM. He had to work a double(not mad anymore). Robert sr. attempted to call me AGAIN last night, like, a half hour later(still fuming at him). But, I'm not going to focus on it. I'm trying soo hard not to be mad. I need to just avoid Robert Sr. at all cost. No matter what I say or do, I just see red whenever I talk or receive a letter from him. And I hate to be mad at anyone...I'm not very good at it. I was, for the most part, always the person to befriend everyone. But, that also came with some not nice characteristics and not so nice people. You live and learn.
Okay, so...why do I bother even talking to Robert? Why did I even answer the phone? I don't know. The first time, I actually hung up intentionally. But, just like him, he called back. And even after I cursed him out, he called back again. I'm just going to do like I said, and avoid him at all cost. It shouldn't be hard...he IS in jail, after all. He's not coming out anytime soon, that is, if he does come out to US soil, anyways. Doesn't matter-even if he's released, we'll be gone by that time. He doesn't deserve to be in the babies lives.
Okay, from now on, I'm not even going to talk to him. I'm not even going to mention him anymore.At all! He doesn't exist. Period.
Well, I'm getting off track...the rain. yes, the rain. Ugh,the rain. We have to stay in. IT's windy and rainy and I'm not eating. I just don't feel like eating,does that make any sense? I thought I was always hungry. But, really, I'm not. I'm not stressed(even about the dissappointing men in my life), I'm just...not hungry. I dunno. I'm not going to dwell on it.
Well, I guess I'd better go. I really don't have anything else to say.
Mama J