i'm bored

Okay, so....I'm bored. Out of my mind. beyond reasoning. The kids are watching dora the explorer, and I'm sitting here on the computer, doing..nothing of grand importance. I'm waiting for wrestling to come on, like we do every friday.
Yesterday was..interesting. I met up with a friend from high school I haven't seen in almost 6 years. We used to poke at each other all the time, and it was the 6 years never happened. I also invited my friend, salvador, over, and it was neat. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I was acting my age. I got sort of drunk, I stayed up until 1:30 am, and I had two guys at my house(okay, on e was gay, and the other...a big question mark). Regardless, it's the most non-child involved activity my house has seen in some time. And it nice. I just wished it didn't have to happen on a school night for Solstice. The kids were ticked at me when I tried to wake them up this morning.
I guess...I don't know. A part of me wants to get this, a part of wants to do this sort of stuff. But the majority knows, I've seen through family members and friends where this can lead. I don't really need to go through all this again. But I guess every once in awhile shouldn't hurt, right(?)
I'm not sleeping with anyone(for once!) and I'm really starting to enjoy being single again. Not having the drama of dealing with another little boy trying to act like he's a man's problems. Actually focusing on my kids, and meaning it. Mostly, I'm anxious to start the married life, but I know I still have kinks of my own to work out. I'm not completely rushing it. For once, I'm actually content being single. It can only be God working in my heart that did this. I couldn't of done this on my own.
So...my friend,Lorenzo, is supposed to come over tonight..actually soon. He's going to watch wrestling with us. It's nice to have a male friend that I haven't slept with, you know(how slutty does that sound?!?) that isn't gay or already married. And just hang out,nothing expected.
Anyways, this is great. Salvador canceled on me(loser!Just Kidding! ) but, I'm not completely upset. He has his own friday night routine...i think he goes bowling, or something. Well, that's good.
But you know what? I really do enjoy my life as it's going right now. I know I still need to work on somethings, but mostly, I'm more at ease than before. Before, everything used to stress me out..everything. I know if I was the same person I was before, I'd be freaking out about what I'd think Lorenzo might expect of me by coming over. Because, whether anyone likes to admit it or not, I was a slut. It's so refreshing(really!) to admit that without feeling the need to cry my eyes out. It's also nice to meet a guy that really doesn't want to hang out with hidden motives. He's not looking, and neither am I. This is new, and it's great! I hope that until I move, we can hang out more. I really miss hanging out with people that aren't related to me, or people who talk to me mostly because I babysit their kid. I miss having single, child-free friends.
Well, it's almost time for wrestling to start. I'd better get going. I'm sure something of some kind needs to be cleaned.
I'd better go
To God be the glory!
Mama J